and here I am,
down
on my knees
again
for nobody
but
my self.

I
can't believe
how far
I
have strayed.

I
can't blame
anybody
but my self.

My fears
dance
like imps
across my brain.
A blaze
of guilt
tumbles
down my spine.

I
want nothing
more
than to be broken.

See here.

Would you
tear my soul
apart
if I
pressed it
into your hands?

(leave me to my self here)

please.

Shatter me
against the sky
and let me
pick up the pieces.

make me
run
from city to city,
attuning
and communing
and collecting
who I am
beneath
your watchful gaze.

(dear god,
i am going
insane.)

i've
been waiting
for my own
train;
then you
pull me back
under
the surface
and smile.

shatter.

...

and we are
BACK
to the start,
broken wing
and
grass-stained palms.

even then
i was many
and one,
hearing out
the complaints
of monsters
under
my sister's crib.

born in summer snow,
(here i am)
raised in
a desert
of hope,
(here i am)
angels,
(take me)
and blood.
(here i am)

i am
who
i am,
(i am here)
what
i am,
(here i am)
and
why
(am i here...?)
i am.

shatter
and end.
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